getting on with life

That I would have to search for a loving god makes it all the more clear to me that none exist - or if they do exist they have hidden themselves so well as to suggest they wish to be left alone.

Yes, in ancient times female was the god form. Now many religions favor the male, to the point where they insist no female was/is necessary. And I don't believe any of it.

Period.

I will leave this blog out here in blog land for the world to see. Maybe this is what can happen when you seriously search for a deity. Your search will lead back to humans who created gods in the first place - in their own image.

I take comfort that I am in charge of my life. No god is testing me. No good and loving god lets people suffer to "bring them closer to him" or "to make them pure."

When I first let go of god the thought of not seeing everyone in heaven caused me great pain but now I am able to accept that heaven was a nice dream.

We are fortunate to have been born at all. I hope the rest of humanity will figure this out and people will let go of the hateful gods they worship and really start living. That they will stop waiting (and wasting their lives!) for a god to make things all better. That they will get off their knees and off their asses and get up and get busy enjoying - LIVING - this one life we know we have.

This long, long winter has me restless for spring.

I'm not sure when I will post again. I used this blog to help me work out what I believe. I still love full moons and new moons. The seasons and the elements have special meaning in my life. Right now, I just want to get on with living, to do good while I can, and to get smarter every day. 

I would also like to raise chickens and learn to sing.

Thanks for reading my blog.


~Sam

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coming out of the dark

The events of the past week have left me weak.  I have friends in Texas and only wish for them good things.  (How could this happen? - how could a fertilizer plant be anywhere near homes and schools?) 

I still can not believe that someone, anyone would just leave a couple of bombs at the finish line of the Boston Marathon.  (Was it to see how many people they could kill or injure.  Why on earth would people do this to other people?) 

A week like this reassures me that I'm on the right track - there is no god worth following, let alone worshipping.  A good god, even a mediocre one, would not let these kind of things happen. 

Many of my Facebook friends keep posting little sayings like ~

"God will make this all better."

"God has a plan."

"God will dry our tears."

Things will be made better by caring families, friends, neighbors, & communities, and with the help of state, local, and Federal government (that's right - who we vote into office matters on all levels). 

It will be our plans that help us move on through these tragedies (and try to prevent such things from happening in the future). 

And we are the ones who will dry each others' tears - for we know what it is like to cry.

First rose,
a sign of hope for me.

This evening, I am sad because of the destruction I have witnessed this week, but I have hope that my fellow humans will someday soon see that it is just us, and it is up to us to make the world a better place. 


~Sam

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